Sunday, October 24, 2010

Memories of Raya...

It has not been the best raya, but I think as we grew older, that's just the way it is.
The fun is less (no more mercun, fireworks or even that pop pop thing), and yeah,
the duit raya just got lesser than ever. I am not whining ok. Just stating a fact.
huhu.I know I posted this late (its not syawal anymore) but I just one to treasure
one of the moments that make me recall that this year 2010 raya wasn't so bad at all. :)

*with my siblings~ the sisterhood of travelling shawls :P*
*with our cousins and cousin's child*

*house-hopping to open (or not open) houses*
*with my grandpa~ the cutest being in the world!*
TQ for still remembering my name and recognizing my face Tok Ayah dear.
He was diagnosed with Alzheimer's disease few months ago.
My heart shattered upon knowing this. :'(

Sunday, September 5, 2010


The other day last week, I was late to class. I forgot that we had a session with this particular professor who is very very very particular about punctuality. She repeated this issue many times during our first briefing. I was having my usual Monday blues at that time, but I thought I could still make it on time to our campus in Cyberjaya from Kajang. The distance is exactly 30km and I usually take 25 minutes to arrive. The class was scheduled to start at 8.00 am and zero second.

I departed from my house at around 7.11am, but I was so shocked with the heavy traffic jam at such timing. I was stucked at Sungai Ramal for more than half and hour and I was sweating with worry, despite the aircond. There was nothing I could do except prayed the class got postponed somehow. I sped my way to Cyber after the jam but tough luck, I reached at around 8.07am. Parking the car and running to the class at 3rd floor took another few minutes, so I ended up in class after 8.10am.

She was smiling when I knocked the door with my apologies. And oh, I was fined RM2 for being late! About 4-5 of my colleagues came later than me, too. And fined RM2 as well. To make it worst, when she asked me for my logbook to sign my attendance, I just realized that I did not bring the one and only thing that I must bring!! I told her that I might have left the book in my car, and she said go get it now. I prayed hard that the logbook is somewhere in my car....but it was not. I could not find it anywhere. I feel like driving back to Kajang to take the logbook and come back, but too bad in about an hour, we had to rush to Klinik Kesihatan Dengkil for a briefing.

I really couldn't believe my luck. Without the logbook signed, it is considered that I did not attend the class at all. That noon, I drove back to Kajang to get my logbook since we had another session at 2 p.m. And guess what..No logbook at home, too!! :( I feel so devastated. I wasted my time and oil for nothing. Now I have to pay RM15 for a new logbook. Just great... Suddenly when I was about to get out of my car, I felt like bringing my little notebook along to reply any emails or orders. When I opened the zipper, I had to scream when I saw the logbook inside!

So after thinking about it, this is how I shall rephrase my post, not by the sequence of unfortunate events, but by the things that I am thankful for, with His grace.

#1. RM2 FINE: I was speeding like nuts on my way to college since I was late, but thank God, although I was 10 minutes late, I still managed to come in one piece (not involved in any accident). And yes, I have learnt my lesson not to come late ever again!!

#2. THE LOGBOOK: I thought I lost it. When I gave up seeking for it and was about to head to the Admin to buy for a new one, I unexpectedly got it back. :) Kat dalam keta tu jugak le buat sujud syukur..huhu.

#3. COINCIDENCE:And one pleasant thing that I remember happened that day was I coincidentally wore similar cardigan with the same colour as Wafaa. Yes, unlike most people who don't like wearing the same thing as your classmates, we are different. We take pictures to commemorate such event! I know its weird, but hey it is fun la! :P


Ramadhan is nearing the end, but I just feel like sharing this pix with you guys :)

Thursday, August 26, 2010


Bila kita memulakan sesuatu...
Kadang-kadang kita lupa letakkan niat
Kadang-kadang kita lupa baca Bismillah
Sebab tu bila ada masalah,
Kita cepat menyerah...

Bila kita berniat...
Kadang-kadang kita lupa letakkan usaha,
Kadang-kadang kita tunggu disergah baru hendak mengolah,
Sebab tu bila kerja tak menjadi,
Kita mula angkat kaki...

Bila kita berusaha...
Kadang-kadang lupa pula hendak berdoa,
Siang malam kerah tenaga dan masa...
Sebab tu bila kerja masih tak sempurna,
Kita mudah putus asa...

Bila kita berniat, berusaha dan berdoa...
Kadang-kadang kita lupa pula untuk bertawakkal pada Yang Esa.
Bertawakal pun pada bicara tapi di hati masih buta.
Sebab tu bila dilanda masalah,
Kita marah tak tentu hala...

Bila kita berniat, berusaha, berdoa dan bertawakal...
Kadang-kadang kita tetap alpa,
Nak sebut Alhamdulillah pun payah,
Berdoa pun sekali sekala,
Bersyukur sekejap cuma..

Sebab tu bila kita berjaya,
Allah datangkan ujian dan musibah...
Supaya kita ingat dan kembali ke jalan redha,
Tetapi kita kecewa sampai mencari jalan mudah..
Membenci diri memusuhi nadi.

Kita manusia ciptaan Allah,
Bernafas di udara yang sama,
Bila lemah Allah itu ada,
Bila derita Allah itu bersama,
Senang, susah, sedih, gembira...
Allah takkan lupa pada langkah kita.

Kadang-kadang lebih suka dicintai,
Sebab itu kita lupa menyintai Yang Maha Menyintai,
Kadang-kadang kita lebih suka menyendiri,
Tapi lupa Allah sedang memerhati...

Original article from:


Its a good reminder even though its old news... A very good article which takes 2 minutes to read. Sent by a friend of a frieBoldnd who had about 25 or 30 years in the field with such emergencies. Its about Heart Attacks And Drinking Hot or Warm Water.

For those who like to drink cold water [I AM one of those people :P...], this article is applicable to you. It is nice to have a cup of cold drink after a meal. However, the cold water will solidify the oily stuff that you have just consumed. It will slow down the digestion. Once this 'sludge' reacts with the acid, it will break down and be absorbed by the intestine faster than the solid food. It will line the intestine. Very soon, this will turn into fats and can lead to hypertension and heart attack. It is best to drink hot or warm drink after a meal. Now I am going to start drinking hot tea again like I used to every single day when I was younger. (Ouch!.. I meant when I was in high skool okie.. I am not that old yet..arrghh). And by the way, tea is a good antioxidant! I will post more on this since I am a tea-addict! :)

Common Symptoms Of Heart Attack

A serious note about heart attacks - You should know that NOT EVERY heart attack symptom is going to be the left arm hurting . Be aware of intense pain in the jaw line. You may never have the first chest pain during the course of a heart attack. Nausea and intense sweating are also common symptoms... 60% of people who have a heart attack while they are asleep do not wake up. Pain in the jaw can wake you from a sound sleep. Let's be careful and be aware. The more we know, the better chance we have to survive.

Tuesday, August 17, 2010


ART is the process or product of deliberately arranging elements in a way to affect the senses or emotions. It encompasses a diverse range of human activities, creations, and modes of expression, including music, literature,
film, photography, sculpture, and paintings.

In my case, art can be a spontaneous product of boredom :P, which ends up in this portrait of half of my siblings. I simply used Microsoft Powerpoint to add those colourful clouds before I copy pasted this into Paint and air brushed a bit our silhouette to hide my messy croppy works. I know this piece I called art was flawed, but hey,a picture with someone who matters can't go wrong rite. hehe (^_^)...
Me, Irah & Halim

I spent almost 2 hours (have I mentioned I was bored?) just for this one pix. Why? To be honest, recent events somehow made me realise that I should really treasure my siblings (and the whole family as a matter of fact). A dear friend of mine lost her younger brother in an accident a couple of weeks ago. He was only 22 years old..When I attended the funeral, I had to fight myself not to break down to be strong for her. Despite facing countless deaths at the hospital, that was my first time actually to go to the cemetery and tengok orang tanam jenazah depan mata. I did not managed to do that for my grandparents or any relatives.

It broke my heart seeing the grief of the whole family for yet another lost of their loved ones. May Allah give you all strength to face this. Death is certain, but I can not imagine having to lose any of my siblings :( ... Ok I have to stop now. Started crying again... Bulan puasa nie dh memang x cukup air (dehydrated..).. Okay. Happy fasting to all Muslims. Semoga Ramadan kali ini tidak berlalu dengan sia-sia kerana Ramadan akan datang masih belum pasti akan dilalui oleh kita.

Thursday, August 12, 2010


Isn’t love ironic? I have not been in many relationships to write about love (or heartbroken) as an expert, but I do have a few things to share. No matter how bad and hellish the break up was, how frustrating the reason was… you don’t deal with it alone… both of you dealt with it in different ways but in the same level of pain. I knew this for sure now. So...Why do I still believe in love? Perhaps because I don’t want to look for excuses just to be alone. As simple as that.

For a girl who has been in such pain because of love, I’m not scared to try and savor every bit of it… It’s not being stubborn and finding excuses just to evade the sadness… It is believing that loving and being in love may shatter my heart and my life but I will always hold it in my own hand.

Having enjoyed the bliss of love… shattered by the pain it can give… It is not that I’m obliged to point out why the “everything” about love can’t be explained nor justified. Love is a complex entity indeed.If you are with someone, it does not follow that you will lose your own individuality. You are what you are and your partner won’t oblige you to deviate from the person you are, unless you let it. You grow with experiences with people and most of the things we learned in life are when we entered a relationship. We learned the basic values of our existence like trust, respect, sacrifice, humility and love. It is not losing your individuality but sharing it… A single person can’t be called an individual if he does not want to be alone and let another person take that loneliness.

I dreamed what most girls wish when I was little… It changes as I grew up and realize that life is not the same way I had it when I was young… If there’s any dream that I would want to happen… that would be sharing my dreams with someone and making what he dreams of come true. It is like building my future with him as he sees his future with me… It is human nature to share whatever they accomplish in life… and they always share it to that special person closest to their hearts… and that’s the real thing… and that’s what makes us feel better…It is so like a fairytale thing but it’s how I want to seize each day of my life… that is not to make my every dream “once upon a time”.

When you are in a relationship, you are always unsure of a lot of things.. but u will go for it… because that’s what you wanted and you know that it’s worth taking. Friends can never replace boyfriends/girlfriends. Being in a relationship can never replace friendship likewise… There are always things that our friends can share with us and there are memories with that someone we love our friends won’t be able to understand.

Relationships are there to bring out the best and maybe the worst in us. It would break us but we will learn from it. Truly, love is not a simple matter. It is about seeing an imperfect person perfectly. Love itself is a universal experience. Yet, every individual occurrence seems absolutely unique because it expresses itself differently. It is important to stand in love, but not fall into it. Isn’t love ironic?

Friday, July 16, 2010


When I was a kid, I was rather ambitious and wanted to do so many things. My list of ambitions include to be a foreign language teacher, diplomat, translator, tourist guide (!) and even a stewardess(I LOLled hard at this). Because all these share a common thing -the need to master various languages which is among my keen interests. Plus, I get to travel a lot too. I was not inspired to become a doctor after seeing how hard it was for both of my parents to cope and how much they have to sacrifice for others. It was rather discouraging really. But I knew how much they wanted us to follow their footstep.

But then, one by one people around me succumb to death after suffering various diseases and I started to think how noble it is to be able to give the gift of life. The real eye-opener was my late grandmother who suffered laryngeal cancer passed away (al-Fatihah) when I was in Form 3. She was such an inspiration to me and she has molded me to be who I am today. And now she has gone forever. After visiting her grave every week, it took me a few years to recover from her loss.

Losing someone you love so dearly was not easy and that is a fact. Death is nature's master stroke, albeit a cruel one. But thank God, because of the series of unfortunate events, I have made up my mind that I want to do medicine and become a good doctor one day, Insha Allah.
Today, it feels surreal that I am now in my 4th year after all the ups and downs. My younger brother Halim is following my footstep (rather, our parents footstep) and he just started his Foundation in Sciences (Medicine/Pharm) in CUCMS too. May Allah ease our way to success (Aamiin!). There is no looking back now, no matter how tough it gets. After all, life is full of circumstances and hardships. What makes life beautiful is overcoming them. =)

Wednesday, July 7, 2010



(Actual writings from hospital charts)... Hoping CUCMS HOs don’t repeat this. :) I got this from my teaching surgeon Mr. Ahmed Awil who shared this with us students on his facebook! TQ sir :P

1. The patient refused autopsy.

2. The patient has no previous history of suicides.

3. Patient has left white blood cells at another hospital.

4. She has no rigors or shaking chills, but her husband states she was very hot in bed last night.

5. Patient has chest pain if she lies on her left side for over a year.

6. On the second day the knee was better and on the third day it disappeared.

7. The patient is tearful and crying constantly. She also appears to be depressed.

8 The patient has been depressed since she began seeing me in 1993.

9. Discharge status: Alive but without permission.

10. Healthy appearing decrepit 69-year old male, mentally alert but forgetful.

11. Patient had waffles for breakfast and anorexia for lunch.

12. She is numb from her toes down.

13. While in ER, she was examined, x-rated and sent home.

14. The skin was moist and dry.

15. Occasional, constant infrequent headaches.

16. Patient was alert and unresponsive.

17. Rectal examination revealed a normal size thyroid.

18. She stated that she had been constipated for most of her life, until she got a divorce.

19. I saw your patient today, who is still under our car for physical therapy.

20. Both breasts are equal and reactive to light and accommodation.

21. Examination of genitalia reveals that he is circus sized.

22 The lab test indicated abnormal lover function.

23. Skin: somewhat pale but present.

24. The pelvic exam will be done later on the floor.

25. Patient has two teenage children, but no other abnormalities.

Sunday, July 4, 2010


....In the name of Allah, the Most Merciful, Most Compassionate...

Finally I have the nerve to start blogging, after countless times being asked tirelessly from so many people around me to do just that. I kinda like reading blogs since I enjoy reading good material... but I was skeptical about this because I find it a waste of time (sorry!).. but that's about to change now haha.. Do you know that I actually made a list why I should do this blogging thingy :P to convince myself!

  1. I want to build trust for my customers so that they know a little bit about me (see how important you are.. ;p U made me do this blog).
  2. There's a research done that found students who blog regularly fare better academically than those who don't blog at all (I've no idea how!)
  3. I am such a private person (in other word, very secretive). I want to open up and share more with others about my thoughts.
  4. I consider myself very normal (who doesn't rite?), but I do have some interesting stuff to make you gawk. :P
  5. I hope to make more friends!
  6. To sharpen my writing skills (yeah rite..)
  7. To vent out my feelings. Simply typing something to let the whole world read what's going on in the head works wonders sometimes. (But must make sure it will not hound you back later :P)
  8. I want to get feedbacks, keep my finger on the pulse and get readers to suggest ideas etc..
  9. To brag to others that I too have a personal blog now. haha
  10. To discipline myself. Blogging adds certain amount of discipline to a blogger's life (at least I believe so..) I hope my time-management gets better after this.

  • I am an eldest sister who is surviving as a 4th year medical student and passionate about volunteer works, House Md, fashion, food, books, music, art, ninjas (!) and everything Japanese! And at the moment trying my hand at online entrepreneurship/business :) for some extra cash... (Do support me ya folks!).
  • I am also somewhat culturally competent :P Besides my own mother tongue, I am able to speak in Japanese/Nippon-go, Korean/Hangul, Mandarin, Arabic and English (duh!) with varying degree of fluency thanks to my school system and my own addiction to watching foreign dramas/movies!
  • I came from a very big family. My dad has 15 (!) siblings and my mom has 8. I am the eldest of 6 siblings. So I guess I have a lot to share with you guys about my life! :)

WHATS WITH THE NAME "Boku-No-Blog-Hontou-Ni"?
  • I said I love everything Japanese right, so yeah, I can't think of a cooler Japanese line than that ;p. It means "My-Own-Blog-Seriously" or "My-Own-Blog-For-Real".
  • It shows how much I am surprised with myself having my own blog. Finally.

  • Expect me to write and share things that matters in my life e.g. family, medicine, and my various interests.
  • I might also share notes here on health, languages (Japanese lesson!), excerpts from interesting reading material and my all-time favourite jokes.
  • I am an avid reader/movie goer. Books are like carriers of civilization. Without books, history is silent, literature is dumb, science is crippled, and thought is at a standstill! So I may also make book and movie reviews!
  • What NOT to expect is for me to update this everyday :P. However, I may (emphasizing the word "may") update this every week or monthly k :)